Live life today
For so many years I lived my life in the future. Constantly projecting a picture of what life could be like, constantly looking for the next big thing to make me feel alive. Whilst I was busy projecting, the day-to-day life, the real life, just past in a blur.
It took the death of a relative to snap me out of that fantasy world of make-believe and come back to life as it is right now. I vowed from that day on to live life now, not in the future.
“Death is not the greatest loss, the greatest loss is what dies inside us whilst we are still living”.
Those simple moments we lose. That empty cup you stare into, wondering who drank your coffee and then suddenly realising it was you. Those moments you get to the top of the stairs and wonder why you went up there. That destination you arrive at and then suddenly wonder how the hell you got there. The truth is we have all done it. Small moments that may seem insignificant but what if we spent a whole life like that, what if you only had a few months left to live and you look back on your whole life like you looked into that empty mug. Is that it? was that my life? it must have been, nobody else has lived it for me.
Ask yourself the question “what simple thing can I do right now, to nourish my life”
I used to think, Oh I will enjoy life when I have this or that, or life will be better when I have completed this task and the next big think comes along. Life will be happier after the next holiday and so on and so on, always one day sometime, but never today. It is so easy to fall into this trap, I catch myself still doing it now and again.
Something amazing started to happen when I said to myself “what simple thing can I do right now in this moment to nourish my life and make a difference”. It could be as simple as being aware of breathing, or just listening to the birds outside, having a mindful cup of tea or coffee, small moments of awareness that ground me to a life of reality and authenticity.
I started to not need the vacation to feel happy, or the next big thing to come along to make me feel alive. I dropped the need to be so busy and in turn became more productive. This different mode of thinking, although sometimes difficult to maintain, has and is having, a profound effect.
Last year, I took the leap to reduce my day job working hours, from five days to four. Something that was always going to happen in the future, started happening there and then, that day. Just a small step made possible by just living now, not in the future. It has meant less money coming in but there is no contest when I weigh it up against having more time to live life in this moment, to follow my heart and passion, to write this blog and to hopefully inspire others to see it is possible.
Cherish those beautiful small moments, it may be walking barefoot on grass, walking the dog, sipping a cup of tea, listening to a friend or loved one or counting your breaths up to ten. Whatever it is, it is what reminds us we are alive now, right in this moment, not in the future.
Pause, take your time, be bold, be courageous but more importantly, live your life today, not tomorrow, not next month or next year, but today.
Be happy, have a great week.